~Whattya want from me~

Call it self full-filling goals, and I'm not meeting those by my standards.
I keep getting down on myself over and over again, and I don't why. I know I kinda need to give myself a bit more credit, maybe.
School's just school, I want to say "Yep, s'all good." But it's not, it's almost a struggle.
My own thoughts about home keep distracting me and getting myself down, lol hey mom, it's those stupid ANTS again, hahaha, and here we thought we were past it.
I was just sitting in class and a friend of mine said something, I don't even remember now, and I about bit her head off about it for now reason.
Then for the past few days, all I've wanted is to lash out at something and break it. :(
Still have the feeling, but it's really just kinda still building up underneath, I guess that's why I haven't kept my blog as up-to date as I'd like...sorry to those of you that I kept waiting and you only get this, kinda a let down..
Hmm, trying to turn to a better light,
Been listening to Adam Lambert ALOT (lol my newest addiction Shelbs, though it might last too)
Sad fact of it is, he's here in Nagoya RIGHT NOW and the ENTIRE concert is sold out, i tried again and again to get tickets, sad....Lol, maybe I'll run into him on Sat. I'm thinking about going.
Went to the Orthodontist here...THAT was an experience...i had to do 3 molds....I swear if I ever have to do another I'mma hit someone...-.-
But I do like how gentle they were :3 I wanna stay here for my orthodontics XDD!
It was nice, lol. I can understand more Japanese when it's spoken to me, speaking's a bit of a challenge still.....okay...A LOT of a challenge, but still it's S-L-O-W-L-Y getting better.
Cooling off finally, lotsa rain as well. Been wearing longer sleeved shirts, dang, and right when
my mom sent me my camis XD GO FIGURE
I'mma buy batteries soon, STOP ASKING.
Oh, and I'm going to show my host mom my photos of people soon, and places.
So if you have ANY helpful ones, PLEASE send them to me!!!! shyshyx@hotmail.com!!!
LOVE ANY!!
I don't really have a lot I want to say...so..
talk to you guys again i guess.
<3