Korea trip's almost here!!

One day of school this week, :3 I'm excited.
Things aren't particularly getting better, but I suppose they aren't getting worse.
Seeing Harry Potter with friends really helped, kinda felt like I belonged then.
I'm not really sure about what's all going to happen in Korea, most I know is we're
visiting tombs, and possibly (nothing definate yet) seeing the largest department store in the world.
Because it's only to renew our visas though we aren't staying long, not a lo of things to do.
Prayer war doesn't break out!! XD
Fall has come.
The leaves changed so quickly and fell it seemed like hardly autumn,but with the rain and
the cooler weather it's still around.
My host mom agreed to have Lizzie, and maybe Kodi, over to have a baking day!
We're going to show her how to make Pumpkin Roll, Pumpkin Muffins, and possibly Pumpkin bread.
The whole house is going to be filled with delicious smells!
I can't wait!
Got to go to a Ninja Village yesterday, for Kanto's birthday.
It was really fun!!
Mayu-can and Kanto dressed up in the uniform and got to go through a series
of tests real ninja had to do during the war. Photos will be uploaded laterz.
I already knew most of them, scaling rock walls, walk along a wall, climb a lightly notched wall.
But, my favorite: I aced Shuriken throwing. The master of it (an actual retired ninja) told me I had a real skill for it. There were multiple targets about 5-12 feet away, average for a shuriken attack.
So giving us each 8 shuriken, he taught us how to hold them and throw properly.
the targets are a little smaller than a human chest, right where you'd actually hit.
I made 7/8 he first time all on the target, 5/8 the second when I did it again.
The 5/8 had four on the bull's eye. :3 I really enjoyed it too.
The one's I want are 850 yen each, (roughly 10 bucks each for really nice ones)
Believe me, I want them like none other.
They're so nice to use when you can throw them properly.
We also painted porcelein (sp?) cups.
Jaa, I got things to do~

Past weekend

Yeah, I haven't updated this is quite some time, and i realize that.
Lots has happened really. We're going to Korea in a few weeks for a school trip, that's actually only designed to renew our tourist visas because they expire the EXACT day we leave for Korea.
Oh well, their logic is flawed anyway.
Horrible. That's the only way to describe that past few weeks.
Up and down, more lows than highs. Homesickness has hit me like none other,
and old habits are catching up to me. I've always had trouble opening up to people in my life,
lots of people can agree with me. But it's caught me here bad, trying to open up to my family here
in another country is such a struggle. I'm not saying we don't get along!
But I'm saying I'm not close to them, not like I should be. Which also begs to bring in that I'm really
struggling in Japanese still, and I'm at the point where I'm going to ask if one of the advanced students can tutor me, because I seriously need it.
Biggest low:
I don't fit in here.
There are a maximum of maybe 2 people I really connect with and can talk to.
and they already have their own groups, so I can barely see them.
I'm officially a floater (i think loner is better suited though).
People aren't excluding me from things, I'm not pushed away. But even when I try and go along with them, since they never invite me, it feels as though I'm treated as a bother tag-a-long they wish would go away. Coming from a socially oriented life in WA I've basically done a 180, and I'd rather be alone then try and go along with them any more. I never wanted this, this sucks. Oh, add the stress from school. Yep, just add that to the mix as well. I assure you, it won't hurt. (Right *rolls eyes*) I only have to deal with SYA for the nine months. So, I'm just focusing on my host family and the experiences now, yeah I'll give it my best in school, but that's it. I didn't come for the schooling, I came for the living abroad experience, and to see how much I can grow from this. Frustrated, that's all i've been feeling. Frustrated with myself, with this retarded school system that needs to be fixed, annoyed with the people i have to go to school with.....
I can't give up on this though. I spent all summer working for it. and so many others helped me get here, I'm not going to let them down.
I'm so scared of making mistakes lately, I don't try anything, so I won't make any.
Which I'm beginning to notice is taking it's effect by falling behind in Japanese.
Since I get scared to speak it, I'm not progressing with it. Can I have a counselor now? Someone just needs to wrap Shelby into a box and mail her to me after Macy's Day Parade, she'll do.
so....much....stuff.
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